The Phases in My Life

Amazed i would say how i have followed the common life order that every parents have plan for their child since birth...Birth,kindergarden,primary school,secondary school, Diploma, Degree and Work....

Birth:
Well since im just a babe so not much i remember... but my parents used to tell tat i should be fair skin but got darker becouse of my grandpa zink house..so im dark now..but cool wif tat..hahahahaha

Kindergarden:
I join my kindergarden at the age of 6....MIC kindergarden back in Selayang...This first step i put in education...I got lots of friends...and it was really fun time also..The breakfast prepared by the aunt next door, teacher punished a boy in front the class, my first dance performance for the song RamBamBam(kamal movie) wif my first ever crush Saravanan...Weird but i like tat boy.hehehehe he was the romeo in my class..I dun have any picture of it..coz my dad dun have any camera tat time so i dun know whr to get the pic...Kogilavani was my best friend...i like her a lot..really smart....and i admire my teacher's dressing...very nice
hmmmmmm...feels like just yesterday...

Primary School:
I joined my primary school at Selayang..1S...wif s and kogi..s was a big bully and i alwaiz kene from her a lot...Kene lempang,kene kejar and weirdly i still follow her...damn her...
then at std 4 i shifted to Rawang to sinaran budi...Wow nice place it was...i learn a lot there...
during my stay in selayang my english suckzzzz(still does)...but then in rawang it got better...
my maths got better and got number 6 ( top ten) for the first time in my life..and i knew i can read, calculate and study...hehehe..i also faced lots of frens prob..childhood silly stuff..and tat when i first learned to take public bus alone..buy a lot of ice cream (20 cents bec then)..i was prefect, first time went away from family for camping...and i got 99% for my english paper when i was in std 6...Cikgu Zul, Cikgu Jamal, Sir Rama and all the teachers..love them...thanks people...for making me wat i am today...

Secondary School:
Ok i joined Form 1 Harapan in the year 1998... all my fren separated from me and wen separate ways..juz me,y,and shanthi...nice senior aso...i learned a lot..there were times wen i waz playing around and joking and failed my subjects...hehehehe..and there were times i had a crush on the school head boy...and there were times i fought wif my frens...joined the koir even i suck in it, joined kadet police, was a head of prefect, teacher's fav gurl, called out in assembly for ponteng the sukan stuff..secondary was really a time i evolve my self to a complete teenager...
a lot of messup emotion...and not forgeting lots of crush...and not forgetting the raj guy tat alwaiz disturb me in the bus...like him tooo. ... hmmmmmmmm... niceeeeeee
SPM was life for me..i really studied hard and i scored..i was happy...nice time there...Sir Kumar, Sir Francis, Pn.Norseha,Sir Kaliswaran and lots more..love them...miss secondary school...really wish could go be now...

University:
2003 Jun i joined Uniten for Diploma and continue Degree in 2005 and finish at 2008...Wowwwwwww!!! Wat can i say bout my so called older teenager life...damn complicated...studies, frens, budgets, lecture, and lot more...a lot i went through in University life....till one part i thought i had enough..but i guez my life juz started...Friendship was a big puzzle for me till the end...juz dun get why,wat and when it all hapen..but it hapen...i do like my life in college...freedom..i can go for movies...go out makan and lepak wif frens...my first serious love...one side of course till i receive his wedding invatation...cool huh?....but i lived through it so im cool...then another idiotic emotion moment to one who dun deserve it...long story...in a nut shell im am pleased with wat my college life have thought me so far..it surely have created a better me in every angle...tis moment i wanna thank all that knew me in UNITEN..thanks people...God bless.

Work:
Dun have one yet...hehehehehe



Well tat how my life so far is..amazed i am...after work stage...im not sure where i will be...but thanks God fo everything..Im happy

Hmmmm.....Hmmmmmmm.....(Sigh....)

I really feel weird now.... I was waiting for the moment my project to be over but now i feel so empty..You know like as if i dun have anything else to do (yeah rite)...But im really happy that im done wif my project...man it was such a preasure.... Now im a bit relax...
I still have one more thing to do...JOB...still looking for one good one...hopefully God bless me wif the best job ever...
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm......

PROJECT

Hola people!...

Its been long since i updated my blog...Got lots lots lots of works...all about my PROJECT....
Wow finnnaly its all over...OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM TOTALY DONE WIF MY PROJECT! wowwwwwwww its amazing how i got through the whole process.
It was preasurring and when i said it preasuring its really preasuring..Day and nite all i care is my project and i was like a living zombie. All i tink of is to finish my project as soon as posible...
Well it was for one whole year i have been caring the project around. I couldnt concerntrate in anything else besides my project. My mom was the most supportive person ever this whole world... If not for her support i guez im already in the Tanjung Rambutan for a long time. THANKS SEXY MOM..I LOVEEEEEEEEE U.....
Also im not going to forget to say thanks to all those who really help me out from all angle....The list starts now: MY DAD (KAMALASEN, I LOVE YOU...MUAXXXXX),MY SISTAZ(THANKS GURLS for all the jokes to cheer me up), DEGI MACHA(thanks dude for being a such a gud sport all the way till today), SHASHA (thanks baby gurl..ur the best),Saadah and Ina( yo macha cant believe we are frens till now..may God bless our friendship),Navin Anne( thanks dude), MY DEAREST LORD( THANKS GOD FOR BLESSING ME FOR ALL THE PRAYES I DID)

Im done wif my project and im so damn happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me and no regrets

TOO LATE TO...APOLOGIZE

I'm holding on your rope,

Got me ten feet off the ground

I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound

You tell me that you need me

Then you go and cut me down,

but wait

You tell me that you're sorry

Didn't think I'd turn around, and say that...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize,

it's too late
I'd take another chance,

take a fall

Take a shot for you

And I need you like a heart needs a beat

But it's nothing new

I loved you with a fire red-

Now it's turning blue, and you say..."Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you

But I'm afraid...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize,

it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize,

it's too late

It's too late to apologize,

yeah I said it's too late to apologize,

yeah

I'm holdin on your rope,

got me ten feet off the ground...

*song by one republic..love the song

A feather

Your symbol is a feather. You are carefree, happy and lighthearted. You smile and laugh at the smallest things. People really enjoy your company as you add a bit of a warm aura to a depressed day. Everyone can count on you to draw a smile on their face. You can be silly and immature because you're a child at heart. You are very friendly and supportive. Your mission in life would be to spread the laughter and achieve as much as you can, because you know, time is precious, we don’t have a lot of it to spare.

LIKE ME

*this pic really reminds of myself...i totally will lost myself into the world of books like a small child excitingly wanting to know new things and world...

TRUST

You like to have close ties of trust with your friends, so in return you like to keep things a secret to know you have someone that your able to spill your heart to, without having others know about your secrets. It is nice to have people who can trust you, and you are a very trustworthy person, people rely on you to be a good listener to there problems and keep them on the down-low. If you played the trust game with someone, you would catch them, but the other person may "accidentally" drop you. Thanks for taking this quiz! Please rate!


*ok im suprised to get this asnwer!

ANGER

you live for revenge! you don't trust anyone but yourself, and are intent on getting back at those people who make your life miserable. but try brightening up a bit and looking at the big picture, life is short and you should enjoy it!

I learnt..Again..

Today i was juz chilling around as this is my first day of holiday after being a trainee in hell for 3 months...
and i was watching GREY's ANOTOMY wif my drinks(juz juice)... enjoying my day..and then there is this one character in the series known as Dr.Bailey(i love herrrr)...and she meet her old so called guy frenn and he was injured and she was helping him around..and yeah he was a sweet talker...and then it seems she was helping him in school homeworks back in school and he is this hot athlete and he was actually using her coz she was a smart ass...and she didnt realize tat coz she is this fat, not really tat actractive gurl tat a guy would ask out..and she thought tat this guy was into her...and after so many years she still doin the same thing..he was admitted and she was filling up all the medical forms tat he was suppose to do...and then she realize tat he was using her all these while till tat moment...and she was really sad and upset coz she felt she fooled herself out all these years...

ok why i tellin this story..well i had kinda the same kind ting few months ago...
i had really bad friendship and wen this one guy came in my life promising tat he will be my best fren and shower me wif all the attention...and yeah i did fall for this guy...i didnt knew wat was cuming and i guez i was stupid...and still amm...(God if my cousin reads this im so dead) well she knew all A 2 Z she more to my bes fren then my cousinz...and at one point when he knew tat he can controll me and got me fully...he started to ignore me and juz used me wheneva he needed...he didnt keep none of his promises...Goshhh i should have knew it were juz words...
welll i when i saw the series i knew how stupid i was and how i let myself get hurt again and again...
i think this time i really learnt my lesson...for real....i deserve better than him...im not gona let myself hurt again juz becoz i trust people wat to fasttttt....
i have to put myself centered first...and im not goin to hurt or do this again to myself...

why im writtting this in my blog..juz in case if someone or anyone had gone through the same..juz bare in mind tat U R SPECIAL and neva let another make u sad or think ur less one step behind them... U R WAT U R AND LUV URSELF NO MATTER WAT...

and to this guy..hmmmm may God teach him a very gud lesson....


coz right im happy wif my family,myself and my coffee....not forgetting my dark hunters...hehehehe

Gud nite all

8.8.08..The One Day of my Life

OK....
On 8.8.08, it was my last day as a trainee in the bank in Kayhell...i was juz keep staring at the clock wishin it would go faster..but yeah TIME neva listen to no one...and yeah i bought gift for Mrs.Mages coz she really help me a lot and keep me company there ( a plaze where i have nooo frens..and i HATE my boss)...Then i waited for my idiotic boss to signed my attendance paper which suprising took him hours...and then i sent it to the HR.. and then when i got back to my table, my boss wanted to talk to me..and i sat there quietly and listen to his crap..well lets not go there...then..i packed my stuff and looked around for one last time and waited for Mrs.mages and walked back wif her to the front door..and i really felt sad and hugged her gus bye..SHE IS VERY NICE LADY... then i walked to the bus stop and took the my regular bus..and guez wat it was packed(gosh i hated wen its packed) then as i expected i nearly fall wen the iditic bus driver did sudden brake and there was this indian guy(around his 50s) hold me, preventing me from drop flat on my back... and i thanked him for tat and then there was an empty sit beside him where he was standing and asked me to sit there..so i did..coz i dowan to risk another fall...and i was so tired and was sleepin while listening to my ipod..and then the lady besides me was gone and i got to sit by the window just as i liked...(by the time i realize the bus was half empty..) and on the was nearing my home the indian guy came and sat besides me and i jumped in suprised..i didnt pay much attention as i really thought he was a good guy coz of his age..(neva judge a book by its cover) then he started to talk and ask me all kind of question ..from my name to where i worked..i didnt tell him the truth most of the time as i dun know him b4..then he asked my name..AND TATS WHEN I KNEW HE IS AN ASS HOLE...and there was this another indian guy around his 2os sitting right infront of me..and saw my and i gave him a look like help me!!..and he juz kept lookin time to time as this ass holes keep bugging me wif his idiotic flirting question..at one point i wanted to scream and say tat ur age are the same as my father..but i was scared(im suprised i was scared) thought tat he might follow me as i have to take my car from the station and i parkedquite in a lonely plaze(no parking in the mornin)..and suddenly juz as i thought that bastard ask my cell num..i was shocked..and asked him why and he said simply maybe can go for lunch on Monday..He is from Bukit Aman..i was really shocked..he was like my father’s age and he has the guts to ask my num…I said I cant giv him my num and he said why are u scared HELLL YEAH BASTARD!!!...
Then the other Indian guy gave me the look like ‘do u want me to punch him’…I really wanted too but my stop came..and I rushly left the bus and ran as fast as I can to my car and locked myself in..I wa shaking like I have seen a ghost…

The thing is ..i prayed to God to grant him anything he wished dearly as he help me out from dropping..and TAT BASTARD!!!!!.. Im really shocked tat he can looked at me in tat manner when I look like his daughter’s age…I felt sooooo stupid to trust people so fast like tat…GODD!!!! Wassup wif these guys creature..is there only this one thing they can see in all women in the world!!!!!...

Almost all the guys in my life so far that I meet are like this and still like this except my dad and my two bes buddies back in my hometown… Its really suckzzzz!!!!!!!!!

And for TAT ASS HOLE!!!! I really wished he was hit by a loory and by the very same bus!!!!!

TO THE HELL WIF YOU BASTARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE FEAR!!!

Ok when it comes to fear..damn im the best..well I dono bout tat actually
Did u ever encounter a situation that is so important but u are so scared to even think about it…well im having it now…lots of them…so im lazy to type in all…

But I just could get it..i want it to be ok and done but I just don’t do it at all…WTF!!!!
WEIRD !!! I juz dun get it why im doing this…and seriously im hating it…

Then there is another situation where I hate to take risk…I prefer life wif no risk but some says tat life without risk is total boring and quite..but tats wat I prefer…I like it tat way…SHIT!!! Even writing this makes me tremble to maxx…

Sometimes I just wished I was dead then experiencing all this stupid idiotic feelings….
Just hate it…maybe some (maybe all) dun get wat the crap im mumbling about…
TRUST ME EVEN I DON’T!!!!

Beautiful thought

NEVER CRY FOR ANY RELATION IN LIFE

BECAUSE FOR THE ONE WHOM YOU CRY

DOES NOT DESERVE YOUR TEARS

AND THE ONE WHO DESERVES

WILL NEVER LET YOU CRY.........

TREAT EVERYONE WITH POLITENESS

EVEN THOSE WHO ARE RUDE TO YOU,

NOT BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT NICE

BUT BECAUSE YOU ARE NICE........

NEVER SEARCH YOUR HAPPINESS IN OTHERS

WHICH WILL MAKE YOU FEEL ALONE,

RATHER SEARCH IT IN YOURSELF

YOU WILL FEEL HAPPY

EVEN IF YOU ARE LEFT ALONE.......

ALWAYS HAVE A POSITIVE ATTITUDE IN LIFE.

THERE IS SOMETHING POSITIVE IN EVERY PERSON.

EVEN A STOPPED WATCH IS RIGHT TWICE A DAY.........

HAPPINESS ALWAYS LOOKS SMALL

WHEN WE HOLD IT IN OUR HANDS.

BUT WHEN WE LEARN TO SHARE IT,

WE REALIZE HOW BIG AND PRECIOUS IT IS!.........

*all sound easy and sweet...but can we really do it...i mean its hard for me for sure

but sweet one naa....

SO NOT ME!!

Ok today the ‘so not me’ happen….and its nothing tat bad luck or wat…juz simply…
I GAVE AWAY MY SIT TO A BLIND GUY!!!!!

I dun even know why I did tat…its not tat im not happy juz tat its so not meeeee… I always ignore (yeah I know its rude) but today something in me juz ask me to get my damn ass up and give the blind guy to sit….

I’m actually very happy wif wat I did today…usually I juz ignore becoz I dun really care and Im kinda malu wanna do the gud stuff…(dun ask y) even I don’t know…

But im hepi tat I did giv away my seat for someone in need…Wohooooo!!!!

What City in The US are You

New York, New York

You love a place that has action but can also be serious at times, just like you are.

What is your symbol

A sword

Your symbol is a sword. You can be rather short-tempered and aggressive at times but you are loyal to your friends and stay true to whom you trust. At times, you may see violence as a solution to problems. You are not always the diplomat and can be very outspoken. You have built-in strength and a strong mind. More often, you play the role of the leader. You believe your ways to tackling life are correct and would not let anyone manipulate you.

Personality Disorder Test Results

Acheron's Book

Book of Acheron by Sherilyn Kenyon is coming this 5th August 2008

The sensation of His touch shall begin....Hmmmmm...

The Sins I Have

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	High
Envy:	High
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	High

The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com

Pride- That is My Sin

Vanity/Pride(vanity, narcissism)

In almost every list Pride is considered the original or most serious sin. It is identified as a desire to be more important or attractive to others, failing to give credit due to others, or excessive love of self (especially holding self out of proper position toward God). Dante's definition was "love of self perverted to hatred and contempt for one's neighbour". In Jacob Bidermann's medieval miracle play, Cenodoxus, Pride is the deadliest of all the sins and leads directly to the damnation of the famed Doctor of Paris, Cenodoxus. Pride was what sparked the fall of Lucifer from Heaven, and his subsequent transformation into Satan. Vanity and Narcissism are good examples of these sins, though both imply a more empty feeling of Pride, with little to back it up. In the Divine Comedy, the penitent were forced to walk with their heads bowed while they were whipped in order to induce feelings of humility.

Punishment in Hell: Broken on the Wheel.
Demon associated: Lucifer

THE PERFECT SLEEP

Everybody enjoys sleeping (well maybe some people don’t) but I definitely enjoy sleeping…hehehehe

Ok I always have this wonderful imagination of how my perfect sleep should be.
Well firstly I want a mansion size bedroom with red painted walls and big portraits of beautiful sky. Why red wall…hmmmm…I don’t know…just seems perfect…ok then I want a huge king size bed maybe super duper king size..hahahaha…suitable for my size…
And lots of pillows…all super soft pillows expect for one that I will used for my head…and I want my bed to be in light blue color. The material of my bed sheet should be ‘sutera’ silk (u know the shinning and soft ones) . And of course I want the room to be cold. Medium cold. And I want a big window (till it almost touches the edge of the ceiling) and a white curtain with red spread should be half cover the window.

And not forgetting a melodies music that can make u sleep tight. A French music maybe.
And last but not less, a perfect sound full rain with dark sky.

And there u go, im already sleeping. I think I wont be awake for days…hahahaaha

I really wish this will come true….that day will be my perfect sleep…

*something like this..hehehe

Which Dark Hunter Are You?

tHe sOfT sIdE oF Ash

This is Acheron and his god-daughter, Marissa. From the Dark-Hunter novel, Night Embrace.

Ash Akri Acheron

Acheron Parthenopaeus

Born : 9548 BC

Birthplace : Atlantis or Didymos (depends on who you ask and how Ash feels when he answers) Motto : Just because you can doesn't mean you should.

Favorite Song to Hunt by: Awake : Godsmack

Current Location : Constantly moves, and we make weekly bets on where he is or where he'll turn up.

Quote from Dance with the Devil : "I'm the top of the food chain and well...you're the food."



Ash's symbol :









The correct old Greek way to pronounce Acheron Parthenopaeus is Ack-UH-rahn Pahr-thin-OH-pay-us. Over time and because it was difficult for some cultures to correctly pronounce it, he used the more "modern" Ash-UH-rahn.

Since Asheron and Acheron are both old names and he didn't feel like explaining it to people, he started going by Ash roughly 150 years ago. Personally, he prefers Ash and always refers to himself by it. But he will answer to any and all three names.

Whenever he gives his full name in the contemporary books, he pronounces it Asheron. Even though he was the youngest when he died, Acheron was the first Dark-Hunter ever appointed.



He is also the writer of the Dark-Hunter Creed and of the Code we abide by. Because of his Dark-Hunter age and the fact that he fought the Daimons alone for thousands of years, he is more phantom than real.



He interacts with the other Dark-Hunters on a whim, and his sage advice is often sought. Eccentric and idiosyncratic to the extreme, he is a legend among legends.



The Dark-Hunters never know what to expect when Acheron enters a scene. He runs the full gamut from friendly to intimidating to downright scary. It is said of him that there has never been a mortal born who could equal his physical perfection.



He possesses a raw, rare kind of charisma. To look at him is to want him. To see him is to ache to touch him.



Artemis herself once said of him:



He had been built to please, and trained to pleasure.

Everything about him from the sleek muscles that rippled to the deep,

erotic timber in his voice seduced anyone who came into contact with him. Like a lethal wild animal, he moved with a primal promise of danger and masculine power.

With the promise of supreme sexual fulfillment.





Sunshine describes him as:

He had such a deadly, graceful swagger.

A predator’s lope.

There was something intrinsically sexual about Acheron.

Something compelling, seductive. Just being near him made her want to reach out and touch him. It was as if he were putting off some powerful pheromones and at the same time, she was scared of him.

He was like a lethal, beautiful animal in the wild that part of you wanted to cuddle while the other part of you knew he was just as likely to rip your arm off as he want to cuddle back.

He was magnetic and fierce and he made her want to run for the door





No one knows why he became what he did.

Then again, no one knows much about him. Period.

And he likes it that way.

Trying to get any personal information out if him is an impossible task.

No one even knows what his real hair color is.







Taken from: http://www.yearofacheron.com/home.html

Bad luck!!!!

Ok some happens yesterday and some today…Below is list of wat happened:

-When I was walking bec from my work to the bus stop, my sandal putus!!!!!
-And I was walking just like Juon in the street
-People stare at me as if I was cacat or something (well I dun blame them)
-Then when the bus came, there were no empty seats so I was standing..
-I reached my bag to get my money and the bus did the hard sudden brake and I was trembling hitting few people and almost fell
- And finally when I stood bec, I saw few Indian guyz in the bus (all cute) staring at me holding their laughter (how great is tat)
-And when I got to sit, an Indian guy sat beside me and start talking crap
-God he was so annoying
-Then when I finally reach my stop, and about to get down, the stupid bus start moving
-And I was wearing baju kurung so I guez u can imagine how I jumped out of the bus
-Ok this happen today, I wore my fav white blouse and guez wat I got some coffee stain on it early in the morning while I was drinking vanilla coffee
-Ok tat doesn’t stop there, my blouse got stuck to my chair and tear at the side

HMMMMMMMM…I simply have nooooo words to express my feeling…guez u can imagine me screaming my head off now!....

GREAT JUZ GREAT….

TRAVELLING IN BUS SUCKZZ…

Man I hate traveling by bus..Just hate it to the max.
Not becoz its not luxuries or wat but the situation that happen in the bus..
Sometimes I get to sit and sometimes I don’t..Since im leaving quite far and dangling there while the ass hole bus driver drives as if there is no tomorrow, and best part of all I HATE WEARING HEELS (if its sexy) but it hurts like helll…
And the conductors has no respect for the passenger (well some are really nice person) specially the females..The just take the rights to touch with reason asking us to move behind…WAT THE HELL!!!..
Ok fine that another story…some idiots (males mostly, no offence to the guys out there) they just take the chance to lean on u or even worst touch ur butt!!!! Oh God!!!

Only God knows how I am screaming inside…Sometimes I juz snapped at the idiots…And they will give a cold stare..WELL HELL TO YOU TOO BRO!!!!...

Its my body and I hate it when people touch it without my permission..(well who does)..

Oh God I really wish there is ladies bus so we the ladies can go peacefully..well im not telling all guyz are like tat..there are nice man also..example..once I was standing and there this old man standing behind me and keep on touching his butt with mine even when the bus stooped…SHITLAH HE!!! And one nice young man saw that and definitely saw my face expression and push the guy away and stand behind me..as if creating a border between me and the old guy…and he said ‘Its ok now miss’..c how nice is tat person..and he didn’t even touch me at all..Thanks buddy…

Hope this stupid ride will change for better..seriously!!!!

LOTS OF WHETHER…

Well day by day I have a lot in my mind..stuff that I wished I will have immediate answer..Examples:

1) Whether I will get a job that I like, comfortable with, good salary, gud boss and gudd collics…

2) Whether I will be able to finish my project on time and if at all managed to finish, whether I will pass the HELL judge room (the final presentation)…

3) Whether I will satisfy my parents in all way possible and at the same time im happy as well… (Which really hard to do)…

4) Whether I will buy my dream house by the age 30? A house that has all I ever dreamed of since I was a child…

5) Whether I will be able to give my sisters good life right from education and their marriage?..

6) Whether I will be happy just like the times when I was a child till the end of my life?

7) Whether I will ever find a companion of time that I can trust fully and depend on without having the fear that I will crash like broken mirror?

8) And finally WHETHER I WILL BE ALIVE TOMMORROW?!..

I really wonder all the WHETHER in my life that stroke my mind every second to have a perfect answer…

All I know the best answer for now is GOD ONLY KNOWS!

Hmmmmmmm….

The Dark Hunters

I've found a new world...completely new...
i really wished i was in this world..THE DARK-HUNTERS WORLD
all Sherilyn Kenyon invented world and stories..trust me people, these books really awesome
The daimons, Kyrian,Talon, Zareck and how can i forget my fav Acheron aka Ash...

After i lost the sweet Angel from my sight now have these books to bring me back to world of devils and darks...Love the books....Thanks to Degi for sharing the book..Thanks machaaa...

Its all Bout A Job

Oh God the fact that im goin to work, earn money and stuffs is really making me so nervous.. I used to tink that it will be fine when it comes to job but my God im so damn scared now..I thought it was easy but heck nooooooo!!!

So many requirements they want…do u know tat, have ever heard bout this, wat lates buzz and finally when I thought to myself that im so doomed..they will politely say that ‘I will call you back’ oh Godddddddddddd…

Im willing to learn..yes I have done my degree but mostly focused on theory and practically im not that good….

All I want is a good job, a comfortable environment, an understanding boss and of course a friendly environment..well obviously I cant get all like a package but seriously I really want the package…hmmmmmm God plzz be with me to get a gud job so I can take over my dad’s place..My parents have work all their life and now they need rest..time for me to earn and keep them safe..

God bless my education and my job searching…

By God’s Gift-Life

What kind of ice cream are you

You're strawberry ice cream!

You're sweet, happy, and fun!

You love to laugh and smile, and everybody loves your bright personality.

People often put you down because they're jealous of your happiness, but it's very hard to bring you down; you're an optimist.

THE RIDE

Ok it was 27th June 2008 and as usual I took the train to go work..And once I reached the station I saw this hot guy (when I say hot..he is really HOT)..standing there and looked at me. I just ignore and bought my ticket and wait for the train…and train came and I went in and took an empty seat by the window…and I looked up and saw HOT GUY came straight in and sat beside me…I didn’t mind much..Ok another thing, he is extremely tall, tanned skin (indian by the way) and extremely hugeeeeeee…he is not fat but just huge with really broad shoulder…so when he sat beside me, he actually squeeze me to the window …I was like wats wrong wif this guy?!...but then he is cute so oklah (HAHAHAHAHA)..and as usual I took out my story book and start reading (DARK HUNTER, sexy vamp story, HEHEHEHEHE) and all of sudden he said ‘Ur a big fan of vampires aren’t you’ and I was like how the hell he knows bout the book..I asked how did u know it’s a vamp book..and he said he one too..I was like ‘ok juz kill me here now’. But a guy reading vamp book..hmmmm NOT BAD!!!

Then I put back my book and kept silent and after around 5 to 10 minute..he gave his hand and said ‘DEEPAK’ and I was like is this guy for real but I dowan to be rude especially a cute one (muahahahaha) and hand in mine and said ‘ sham’.. He smiled and I melted…WOHOOOO..then he asked… ‘Juz sham?’ ..and I said its shamini actually and he said nice name , I like it…I was like OOOOKKKKK!!!!...

Then he asked where I was heading and bla bla bla…and he told me he is an accountant..and I thought ‘A SEXY ONE’ (dun mind me) and he was talking bout work stuff and I just like ok ok ahh yes ahh oh ok answers.. and when my stop came..i said to him ‘ok gtg, bye then’ and he smile, (I melted again) and guez wat he said…

A C UP OF COFFEE IN FUTURE MAYBE!!!!

I was like OH MY GODDDDDDDDDD!!!!

Inside I wanted but of course I juz smiled and walk out without turning back..i was freakin scared…but it was nice…

Hehehehehe a cute accountant train buddy..

Vampire Mess

Angel's Life

Angel started life as Liam, a shiftless Irish drunkard in his 20s. He was turned into a vampire by Darla, in an alley outside a bar. He took the name "Angelus" and almost immediately killed his entire family. He and Darla then terrorized Europe for over a hundred years. It seems that they enjoyed a sexual relationship, although their primary lust was for human blood.
His restoration to goodness began when Darla brought him a gypsy girl for a birthday present, whom he tortured and killed. Her father, in revenge, cursed Angel by restoring his soul. Angel became a being tortured by his conscience; he was not a true vampire, because he was unable to kill humans, but neither was he human.
After a hundred anguished years, a demon named Whistler showed Angel a high school sophomore named Buffy Summers, who was marked as the next "Slayer". Angel found a purpose in helping Buffy. They fell in love and, on her 17th birthday, consummated their relationship.
The perfect happiness of loving Buffy had the unexpected side-effect of lifting the "curse", and Angel lost his soul, becoming once again the evil Angelus. His soul was eventually restored, but he could not bear to be around Buffy, as he was unable to love her. He thus went to Los Angeles -- the "City of Angels" -- to seek his destiny.

The Giaour

But first, on earth as vampire sent,

Thy corse shall from its tomb be rent:

Then ghastly haunt thy native place,

And suck the blood of all thy race;
There from thy daughter, sister, wife,

At midnight drain the stream of life;

Yet loathe the banquet which perforce

Must feed thy livid living corse:

Thy victims ere they yet expire

Shall know the demon for their sire,

As cursing thee,

thou cursing them,

Thy flowers are withered on the stem.

By Lord Byron

THE METAL KNIFE

I TRUSTED YOU
I BELIEVED YOU

I LET YOU HOLD MY HAND
I LET YOU LEAN ON MY SHOULDER

I WIPED YOUR TEARS
I GAVE MY SMILE
I GAVE MY ALL

IN THE END
A COLD METAL
END ON MY HEART

AND YOU HOLDING
THE METAL KNIFE

By God’s Gift-Life

PIECE OF SHITTTT

Ok im writing this especially to those ass holes that made my life suffer…But after I wanna thank coz u did make me much stronger and yeah more careful in finding frens (well im not lookin for any now)…well these idiotic friendship is total shit for me …I think and believe that human need each other for their needs and nothing else..I DUN BELIEVE IN SOUL MATES OR DAMN FRIENDSHIP FOREVA…

As long they need ur help..they just suck all ur energy out and left u to die slowly and painfully..ASS HOLES…well some of u might say that I have bes fren and she/he is very nice to me..well yeah some of u are lucky to meet gud frenz but me I have no luck at all..and wished not to have that luck at all now…

those promises, those jokes, those laughter, and WALLLAAA wait dear fren, I have something else for u..why dun u turn bec and I wanna givva something..and after all u trust them more and heck u turn and there u go.. A HARD COLD STAB!!!!!
And u drop blood tears not becoz of the cold stab but becoz of the hand that stabbed u…
So a reminder to the ass holes…if u feel this is for u… juz suck ur own blood and die!!!!

All my life I juz hope I won’t see those ass holes again in my life coz definitely I will puke on their face… But of course I wish them all the best after all they just murdered their fren with their hands…so I guez nothing stop them then excel in life….I guez if next time anyone ask me to be his/her fren …all I have say…KISS UR ASS AND BUZZ OFF JERK!!!

* my anger to you shall never fade till the last breath I hold

Watch Out!!!!!!

Man im so damn pissed wif the bus drivers nowdays...IDIOTS THERE ARE....

ok it like this, i travel by bus everyday on my way back home from work..and sometimes i get to sit and sometimes i dont...depends on the crowd....so wahat is , yesterday as usual i took the same bus to my place and my bad luck there were no empty sits..so i have to stand..the conductor was nice malay guy..he ask me to stand beside a malay lady who was sitting as her next stop is after this..so i stood there holding to the sits holder...

ok there is two type of bus company A and B....im in A...and yesterday there were bus B ahead us doing his job...And bus A started to accerlerate so he could be ahead of B..He didnt follow the rules, didnt stop at the traffic light and keep horning to people giving them a shock to move aside...This is all because they want to compute to get more passeger..SHIT....an old day almost fell when he flew like a jet on road...i was strugling to stay put....DAMN THESE ASS HOLES!!!!

ok i thought the B bus would be nicer but hellllll nooooo!!!! he was in the race as well...there few times each bus almost hit the motorist on the road...DAMN IDIOTS!!!!

all they care is the money, more passenger more money but they dun giv A SHIT ABOUT THE SAFETY.....I was cursing them all the way till i reach my stop...mannnn they really have to stop competing and start thinking bout the passenger safety....

HOPE TODAY MY RIDE WILL BE GOOD....

Angel Crew

David Boreanaz-Angel

Born in 18th century Galway, Angel spent his youth drinking, womanising and stealing from his rich father before Darla offered him eternal life and a lumpy forehead in 1753.
After terrorising most of Europe for over 150 years, siring Drusilla and really annoying a man called Holtz, Angel killed a gypsy girl and was cursed with a soul by her clan.

Charisma Carpenter - Cordelia Chase

Former cheerleader and Sunnydale High School bitch Cordelia Chase movedto Los Angeles to seek fame and fortune as an actress after finding herself broke due to daddy's ten years of tax evasion.
Despite networking at all the right parties - and nearly getting her hands featured in a commercial - Cordelia struggled to get her big acting break and instead appointed herself Girl Friday at Angel Investigations.
Cordy's life was to change dramatically when Doyle sacrificed his life - the half-demon transferred his 'gift' of prophetic visions to her. She's now Angel's only link to the Powers That Be. The responsibility has forced Cordy to grow up quickly.

Alexis Denisof - Wesley Wyndham Pryce

Sacked by The Watchers' Council after failing to keep Buffy or Faith under control, Wesley Wyndam-Price kissed Cordelia goodbye (very badly), donned his chafing motorcycle leathers and became a rogue demon hunter. He wasn't very good at that either.
Wesley's quest eventually brought him to L.A., where he teamed up with Angel to fight the forces of evil and fill the hole left by the departing Doyle. Wesley has grown quite a lot since his days as a bumbling 'Giles: The Next Generation' and now runs the show at Angel Investigations.

J. August Richards-Gunn

Anti-vampire vigilante Charles Gunn made it his mission to keeps the streets of L.A. bloodsucker-free. Driving a pickup truck festooned with wooden stakes and backed by an impressive posse, Gunn's life changed the day his sister was turned into a vampire.
Although not initially Angel's number one fan, Gunn gradually came to realise that he and the vampire had similar goals and informally joined Angel Investigations. As time went on, however, his old gang grew resentful of the fact that Gunn wasn't devoting enough time to them, causing friction.

Amy Aker - Fred

Reading a good book is usually a good thing, unless doing so traps you in an alternate dimension where humans are treated like cattle.
That's exactly what happened to physicist Winifred Burkle (Fred) until Angel rescued her from a life of sackcloth and cave-dwelling in Pylea.
It's taken a while for the poor girl to adjust to the real world again. A steady supply of tacos and a lot of scribbling on her bedroom walls is helping. She needs to watch that crush on Angel, though.
Fred's certainly one of the brains of Angel Investigations. Her ability to calculate the most bizarre things in her head often comes in handy - if you can understand what on earth she's on about. She builds a mean monster trap too.

Andy Hallett - Lorne

King of Karaoke and owner of demon-friendly bar Caritas, Lorne is an anagogic demon who can see into a person's aura - so long as they sing to him first. if Angel's rendition of Barry Manilowe's Mandy has put you off music for life, blame the host.
Hailing from the alternative dimension Pylea, where singing is unheard of, Lorne's full name is Krevlorneswath of the Deathwok clan. You can see why he picked Lorne for short.
Lorne can hold a note indefinitely and can use his voice as a weapon against some demons. His stunning wardrobe is probably just as lethal too. His race also has the uncanny ability to survive, even if seemingly vital parts of their anatomy are removed.
Now he's a permanent house guest of Angel Investigations

LoNeLy

POEM FOR YOU

A FACE OF LIGHT
AN IDENTITY OF JOY

A CHARACTER THAT BLOWS
A SMILE THAT DRAWS ANOTHER

A TINY HEART NOT TO CRASH
A COMPANIONOF TIME

AQUESTION TO BE ANSWERED
A BEAUTIFUL BEAT CREATED BY DEAR LORD

*Created on 8 July 2007 by God’s Gift-Life

Wat The hell!!!

Ok…. I always travel by bus to go bec home after work…and there this one Indian gal who also take the same bus…
And yeah she is pretty and cute…and BITCHY!... Man u should see how she would look and giggle at you, as if ur the most ugliest living thing on earth…WAT THE HELL!!!... First I didn’t take to serious..WELL im not the type who cares bout wat people thing especially when it comes to my appearance (dono how true is tat hehehe) ok bec to the story…
She have doin that for quite some time and it really annoys me to the maxxxxxx….I mean yeah ur fair, model size and nice clothing but DAMNSHIT who gave the rights to give me that look….well yeah im big size, tall and dark skin…but that’s TOTALLY my business!!! (I AM VERY PRETTY OK!! My very own way of coz)...I was patients for many times but she seems to enjoy it even more day by day… So one day I really wanna teach her a lesson… so I saw her coming and the same idiotic smile on her face like she saying ‘Ah, look at you …damn sad!’…ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
Chil sham chill… ok then she was standing 5 steeps from me and kept glaring at me and at one point when she turn and looked at me…HAHAHAHAHAHA… I asked loudly in English (SO OTHERS CAN HEAR AS WELL) ‘DO U KNOW ME ‘ and as usual, people attitude to turn and look for others..but I said ‘IM TALKING TO YOU’ and she go like watt, wat wat look…HAHAHAHHA..i bet she shit on her pants….hahahahaha
And she said no I dono you and I said oh ok I thought u know me coz you were looking at me from that day…MUKA DIA PUCATTTTTTTTTTTTT….hahahahahaha..
Now u know…and guez wat she don’t look at me anymore and the best part I DON’T SEE HER ANYMORE IN THE BUS STOP! Muahahahahhaha


*im not insulting her or wat, juz I dun feel its rite for her to look at me like that…yeah she is gorgeous but dun ever look down on someone else..I juz wanna others to know tat we look pretty in our very own way and DUN EVA LOOK DOWN ON OTHERS...thank God I didn’t punch her on her face…IM NOT THAT CRUEL!

THE EVIL TWIN

ThE CrEw oF VaMp

ThE VaMp mE

NEED A VACATION

Ok why i need a vacation?..well who doesnt...everyone wants one...
well actually some of my staff in my office went back home early today coz they goin for vacation and im sitting here umemployed (doin my pratical currently) and writing a blog that I NEED A VACATION.. Pathetic me….
I really wonder is this life…listen to ur boss… sit in front of the computer for 8 &*#$ hours (regret taken IT course).. eat ur lunch and sleep.
OH MY GOD!!!

Well just have look how my life is now (just practical)
I wake up at 5.25 am and take my shower and pray and help my mom and pack my stuff and eat breakfast and take my earliest train at 6.40 am. Reach my office at 7.30 am and ON THE COMPUTER. Do my works while kept watching the clock every 5 minutes hope it will execute faster (hell noooo). Sharp at 1m till to relaxxxxx..have my homemade lunch and read my novel..Once its 2pm go bec to my works…and keep glancing at the clock to point the number 5. But yeah it happen 3 hours later for sure. And when its 4.55pm I start pack my stuff and sharp at 5 pm and sign my attendance and cabutttttttttttttttt. Then I have to walk all the way to the bus stop to get my bus (well I take train in morning and bus in evening, cheaper). In the bus either I listen to my ipod or I will sleep. And once I reach home at 6.30pm (I have to walk bec to my houz from the nearest bus stop) I will take my dinner AND THEN ONLY my bath (hehehehe). At 7.30 pm I will take my bath and get prepared for my home tuition classes at 8pm (im teaching my neighbors’ kids for some pocket money) and the classes ends at 10pm..so practically I dun watch tv at all..at 10.10 pm I sleep and the routine goes again in circle.

Well im tired soooooo tired..I studied half of my life and now I have to work to take over my family (dad getting old, I want him to get retire earlier). I’m not complaining that I have to work (well my dad have been working his whole life and he never complains till today, RESPECT YOU MY MAN) but its just tat I need a gap between my graduation and my employment. Just a nice vacation would do. Just to delete all the unnecessary thing in my mind and come back fresh…but I cant have a vacation now.. Roob havin SPM and mom wants her to focus on studies. And I expect my parents to pay for my vacation rite?...That’s cruel for a 23 young (hehehe) big girl towards her parents who is old and tired working. Well you may ask wat happen to my tuition money, well since the oil price naik..i memang pokai maxxx…my phone kredits, my sisters phone kredits, my daily transportation expenses. Its just ngam ngam.

But I really need a break..one night aso can lah..just one great day..maybe spend some time wif my cousins and sis in the pub for a drink and a hell freakin dance the whole night.

Hmmmmmmm I STILL WANT TAT VACATION

Shamini @ kamaraj

THE SOUND OF THE RAIN

THE RAIN

The rain touches my windowpane
The place where I first sat
And
Thought to myself
When it’s going to end

Today at the very same place
With the same sound of
The rain touching my windowpane
Where I used to sit for hours
Thinking about almost everything
In my life

I began to count the days
As
I’m leaving now
And
Will never come back again

I’m going to miss this sound
The sound of
The rain touching my windowpane
Because it will not be the same sound
When it rains again

Dedicated to my UNITEN life that I will remember till the end

By,
God Gift-Life

TRAIN RIDE

I just love traveling in train. I still remember when I was small I used to travel by train to Kluang, Johor with my family to visit my grandma. In fact I was born in Johor. On the eve, usually it’s the packing day. So I and my sisters who are much younger than me will be so excited and will help my mom out in packing process. (which usually she have beg for help if we were asked to some other house chores) hehehehe….
My mom will prepare some mee hoon and sandwiches so we won’t be hungry throughout the ride. But as usual we wont eat that and we will force dad to buy some food (which taste bad and it’s actually sandwiches too), well we are kids so we cant help it lah. And the next day as early as 5 am we will leave the house to go to KL train station. Once we reach, its just so happening. We three just love to see trains and we will be running up and down. Surprisingly my parents don’t scold us. HEHEHEHEHE now tats real funnnn!!!
Later when we got into our train..its much more happening as there will be a lot of people and seriously its funnnn…
And we will play all the ‘masak masak’ stuff (yeah I know its train) and just have a blast. And the best part is the lunch time. We would drag my dad to walk all the way till the end till we reach the train’s canteen. Its small and not much food..but the journey to the canteen that matters. Sometimes we have to walk almost up to 5 to 6 compartments. And guess what we will buy..KEROPOK and my dad won’t scold; maybe he was happy as well.
And once we reach the Kluang station, its even fun..we would run out and start looking for my aunties (I have a lot of auntiessssss from my mom side).
Well it’s really unforgettable memory for me and my sisters. We don’t travel by train anymore now to Johor. My dad bought a car and we have a dog so it’s quiet hard to travel in train.
Now my second sis, Jess hate train as she have to travel by komuter everyday to go to her college and its always pack. While the last one, Roob just don’t remember much about it.

For me I always love trains (I still travel by train everyday for work). I don’t mind the crowd. I just love the sound of the railway tracks. I wish I could go back to old times and travel back in train. I see the world differently in the train at that time.. Niceeeee

By,
God’s Gift-Life

FIRST DAY

Hi to the one reading,

This is my first time in this blogging stuff. Well i have my reason why i want to blog..
I just completed my studies and right now looking for a good job. Im the eldest of two
sister. And my father is retired but still working under contract to support his children (including
me) and my mom is working too, in a company just as an machine operator.
Im not from a rich family but surely rich in happiness. I love my family more than anything.
Im not a person that have a lot of friends (infact i dun have any). I love friends but frens dun love me (hehehehe) honestly maybe becoz i expect more from them.
I just move on even it hurts.
Now i have a lot to tell and less people to listen. So i remembered that one of my cousin used to blog
and thought it might be a gud idea if i have my space to share my thoughts.

so this is my first post and many to come.
thanks to drop by

truly,
God's Gift-Life