Bite me...HARD

I am not in a good mood right now...well i can't really state the reason here, but it got something to do with my weekend that i planned for a week...but ended up doing nothing...Have you ever encounter a situation where you awfully feel so damn ugly and don't even wanna see your face on the mirror and you don't want anyone from your surrounding to drop few word to chill you down, where you feel their words are like petrol. Yeah tats the situation im going through right now...i feel freakin pissed with everything... Example i did my own manicure (so called manicure) and it turned out bad (im not supposed to be suprised by that actually) ..and all of sudden i realize i was crying like a small baby..i mean after a while i was like what the heck im doin...thats when i knew i am pissed and now im crying for a silly mistake...how horrible is that...

I feel like tearing myself apart and just bleed to death...i think i can bear that pain than the burning pain in myself right now..ARghhhhhhhhh im so pissed.....i hate this and hate that and i hate everything....just feel like jumping from KLCC and if that don't work than i will just drink rat poison and just die...ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Shasha baby...

Last friday i thought my weekend will be great but something else happened. My pet dog shasha was so sick that she could barely walk. She was so weak. And we have to carry her to drink water and move her around. We suspected that it might be the poison for the plants which my mom spray on the plants around my house. So i guess she might have eaten one of the plants. OH MY GOD! she was vomiting so badly.

She was dehydrated and was so weak. So me and my dad brought her to the veterinarian nearby. Usually my pet hate to go there but that moment she was just lying on my lap quietly. Then once the doctor checked my pet and it was confirmed that she was poisoned. By what he couldn't tell. Then he gave two injection. Shasha was so quite she did't even move. And that is the first time i saw my baby crying so much. It was so sad and i could not hold my tears. Then went back home and as the doctor said to give her some honey water, we did. But she refuse to drink. But eventually i manage to force her to drink.

She was just lying outside on the floor and i brought her back inside the house she she wont feel so cold. Then she was sleeping for near 3 hours. Then during evening my baby was all ok. She was not really active but she could walk again and i was really happy to see that.

I can't imagine myself without my baby. She is so special to me. She is just not a dog my my lil sister. Everyday i go beck home after work she is the one i first to see. God keep my baby's life for a very long time. Right now i cant wait to go back and see her.

Love you forever my gurl..Ur my best friend...

The gift of God

Every aspirant must strive to keep himself away from the turmoil, falsehood and cruelties of the world, and practice truth, righteousness, love and peace at all times. This is truly the path of devotion. Those who seek union with God must discard as worthless both praise and blame, appreciation and derision, prosperity and adversity. No great soul or even Avatar (Divine Incarnation) can ever escape criticism and blame. In such instances, they do not bend but hold on to the truth. With this realization, immerse yourself in holy books and in the company of the devotees of the Lord. Desist from discussing your belief or conviction with ignorant persons. When you are rich with the experience of realization and devotion, then you can mix freely and even endeavor to direct others to the truth you have seen and experienced.

p/s : given to me by my boss..my deepest condolence to her as her father passed away last sunday..God bless his soul..My boss is a very positive person.